Self-discovery

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THANKS & MUAKS!!!

Births and Joys

Newborn
Visited mas's baby gal after work today. Whole kampung went down... me linda cm clarence lawrence and alan. Reb came soon after buying a gift from paragon. Sooooo cute her baby!~~ Name's Alyssa.. she's so tiny, yet her eyes are mega BIG. Pity couldn't snap a photo of her with eyes open. She was all woozy doozy when we arrived.

Carried the tiny tot in my arms and cute linda couldn't stop gushing and cooing over that little bundle. So when's ur turn huh linda? Grins.. pls dun diao me =P Yeah I admit I was fascinated by the baby too. Mas was clueless over how to carry her and 'handover' the baby. Eh think I carried her wrongly coz she started fidgeting and protesting in my arms. Sobs.

Birthday Lunch
Lunched with Stefan today. Heh despite this being his off day, haha. Well it's his birthday and I think that poor boy doesn't have anything to eat at home. Or he's just plain restless. Had the cheek to tell me he woke up at 1130! I wonder when can I do that...............

First friction
Bound to happen in times of stress. Had a mini run-in and misunderstanding with the gals today. They felt overloaded, and thought we're just gonna leave them to die. Lots of communication lacking in between management's intentions and their expectations. All wanted the best for the company, no doubt. But shit happens.

Officially accepted the role of managing CS and marketing two days back. Prior to this had no idea of what was promised before I came into the picture. Decided to take on the job since they're way overloaded and I wanted to learn new things, more things. Was starting to feel restless about two weeks back.

Pressing situation. Gal's leaving and her duties are superrr loaded. But not hired anyone yet. Thrown into real bad situation and had to seriously harden my heart. Best solution then was to split duties among us all while speeding up the hiring/screening process.

Faced with major reluctance and opposition and uncooperation. Was hurt cos I had assumed they'll gimme benefit of the doubt. That if I had a better solution, I wouldn't have proposed that at all. I had fought for them, screwed some people to get things going. But what did I get in return? I admit I was wrong to not have divulged what I had done for them. Hence the negative reaction and lack of support. They think I'm not on their side. But it's just not me to say this kinda stuff, it sounds like boasting or taking credit. Maybe I should change... People just don't naturally give others benefit of the doubt. You've to earn it yourself.

I was lucky. Found a suitable person and she'll be coming this morning to start work. At least some load off my mind. Just hope the gals appreciate what I've done and will do for them. Their interests and relationship with the management is my top priority now. Along with my marketing work and the new marketing exec who's coming in dunno-when.

Nervous

As I type this, mas will be wheeled into the operating theatre for her caeseration at 9am. She wanted a natural birth, but the baby's cord is wound around her neck plus Jin's leaving for Thailand tomorrow, so today it shall be!

So excited for my good friend.. And welcome Baby Alyssa!!!

Second chapter unfolds for me too. We had a meeting yesterday before she left for the hospital, and I'm officially Management Trainee. With the blessings of Pat and S of course. For a start, I'll be managing the CS team. Very happy about it cos I foresee them moving up the ladder with their potential. Esply miss kitty ;) (to kitty: Eh, mas very look u up ok. Heh.. mai siao siao! Keep up the good work n initiative.) Have to look into handling Coco's tasks too, will be working with Reb on it. Critical critical..

Ok clock reads 8.56am. 4 more minutes to go.... tick tock tick tock.

Money

Can somebody please tell me how to get more money?

I figured if I wanna get the much-coveted Rado for my 24th birthday, which's about 8 months and 9 days away, I'd have to put aside $500 a month. The basic Sintra model's around $3-4k.. but what I'm REALLY lusting over is the Sintra Jubile series that comes with pink sapphires or white diamonds and a $6950 price tag.

That's about $900 a month if I wanna make that baby mine.

And I've also got my eye on a laptop ($4000), a Gucci chain mini flap bag ($2080) and/or a Dior Saddlebag in logo flowers ($1400). Plus the powerboat lessons I'm gonna take in March ($400), golf certification course ($700), and my first proper pen (either ST Dupont or Mont Blanc, about $800).

I need a sugar daddy.

What Thing is Love

To push past the mere prettiness of love is not necessarily to deny that love is, as George Peele says (with a dash of irony) in the 1580s, "a pretty, pretty thing":

WHAT THING IS LOVE

What thing is love? for sure love is a thing.
It is a prick, it is a sting,
It is a pretty, pretty thing;
It is a fire, it is a coal,
Whose flame creeps in at every hole;
And as my wit doth best devise,
Love's dwelling is in ladies' eyes,
From whence do glance love's piercing darts,
That make such holes into our hearts;
And all the world herein accord,
Love is a great and mighty lord;
And when he list to mount so high,
With Venus he in heaven doth lie,
And evermore hath been a god,
Since Mars and she played even and odd.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone. Still have 1 hour and 13 min left for schmoozing :)

Emotionally coasted

I don't know wassup's with me recently. Been a bitch and losing my cool easily. And there are the times of confusion when I'm doing something and I wonder "why am I doing this??" I'm becoming whiny. Not a good thing. I'm becoming begrudging. Not a good thing too. I'm becoming increasingly unhappy as the days wear on.

This is bad.

Sometimes I feel like a hapless baby, trying to hold on and cling on to certain people and things. Especially when I sense the first signs of them slipping away. This is definitely reminiscent of the Sharon back in uni days, when this fear of losing people cost me dearly.

I'd moved on, haven't I? The Sharon now is different and stronger. Well at least that was supposed to be on the script.

But right now with the turbulences going on in my head, reality has snapped its jaws and I'm left to feel the familiar immense pain.

Or maybe reality ain't the culprit. Nor is it my inability to handle the truth. Perhaps this is just a transitory period and I am, in fact, doing very well. Just that the emotions are clouding my vision.

......

I really don't know.

I definitely have to snap outta this. Perhaps be more emotionally detached would help. And pulling away from certain people, whom I've invested far too much than I'd have liked.

I am fragile, after all.

Frustrations

I'm really fed up. Dunno wtf is wrong with P.
Asked me to order a crystal plaque for TPC's managing director on tue evening. Called me twice on Wed night AFTER OFFICE HOURS when I'm all sick at home with stomach flu. What the fuck right? And for the whole of yesterday, came ask me don't know how many fucking times about its status.

I told him they'll deliver to us on Mon morning and $30 for delivery cos the cost of plaque's lower than $300. No way I'm going there to pick it up, so fucking ma huan and I'm sick. But I'm still at work.

ANYWAYS. Trigger came this morning when JL asked me for Yoonly's address coz P told her to arrange for our deliveryman to pick up the plaque today.

"BUT ITS NOT READY!!!!" I almost screamed my head off.
"I dunno..... he wanted to save on that 30 bucks," she rolled her eyes.
We're talking abt a CEO unwilling to part with 30 measly bucks. Great.

I took a deep breath and continued.
"i TOLD him YESTERDAY that it'll be ready either tomorrow or Mon morning. Wat gave him the bloody idea that it's ready today??"

What the fuck is wrong with him.. not the first time he misinterpret what I'm telling him. What the hell.. And he mistook our Sales Manager in Suzhou as GM.
WAHLAU EEEEHHHHH..

With mas on maternity and he's giving me hell. This is just fabulous.

My migraine's back with all these nonsense from him. Previous incidents too.

Quite true..

Exotic bad-ass
You scored 80% masculine, 70% athletic, 81% exotic, and 50% refined!

You want everything in a man at the same time! Masculine, built like a Greek god, exotic and mysterious and even some bad-ass in there too. I think you would really like Freddy Ljungberg, the Swedish Calvin Klein model!

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:


You scored higher than 95% on masculine
You scored higher than 73% on athletic
You scored higher than 99% on exotic
You scored higher than 61% on refined

Link: The What type of MAN turns you on Test written by thinkandcome on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Tarot

Did a tarot reading for myself today. Damn accurate and scary.....

My fave line:
For every action has a reaction; every cause has an effect; every beginning has an end.

Timely reminder... my throat's hurting from all that pineapple tarts and bakwa yesterday.

Pantang

I tell you ah, sometimes some things you just REALLY have to believe.
For example, Don't bring books when you're gonna gamble.

I backside itchy lah, brought Shape magazine to Ah-ma's house today. Thought it'd help to kill boredom if there ain't anything good on tele. Then Aunt Jo suggested mahjong. So me, her, dad and mum played. For the record, this is my FIRST time since CNY arrived that I touched the marble blocks. So you can imagine I was gleeful and kinda looking forward to the game.

The moment the game started, I felt funny. First, I throw red zhong, I'll draw red zhong. Throw 4 wan, I'd draw back 4 wan. WTF? Got pretty fed up but took deep breaths to calm the rising temper. Not good to be in a bad mood when gambling.. draws Bad Luck. Then just when my tiles are "swee swee boh zao chwee", and I'm happily rearranging them and all, someone calls "GAO!" from the table. Damn... Never mind, next round.

This time I'm making discs, but the wan's keep coming to me! Go away, you filthy animals.. I thought to myself as I discarded the 7-wan tile. When I FINALLY shouted "Gao!!!", Aunt Jo was waiting FOR THE SAME TILE. She won that game since she's my upper leg (priority goes to her). PEKCHEKS.

Even more infuriating were the tiles I drew. One time I was holding 1 dong, 1 nan, 1 xi, 1 bei, 1 red zhong, 1 baiban and the rest are some crap formation. How to play?!? Do 13 Wonders also hard. Anyway I NEVER attempted shi san yao and never will.... They say once you hu that, you'll lose until sibeh jialat after that. Thanks but no thanks.

In the end I lost 35 bucks. PAthetic!! That money could've been used for a bottle of good red or Alize....

* Saturday 7th lunar day *
Speaking of which, I've finished my passionfruit Alize at Des's place last night. Held a gathering at his house for assorted friends yesterday. Kate and Jun came early; crowd only started coming at 4plus 5plus. Des went to pick our food up from the nearby restaurant, so had to play host to everyone. Intro intro, then played blackjack in his room.

After dinner, I whipped out my Truth or Dare jenga for some post-dinner exercise. Did silly stuff like "Whistle a happy tune while skipping around the room", or "Blow a raspberry on someone's tummy". I lost the 2nd round and bloody hell, I was saboed to do POLE DANCING as forfeit. In the living room, with his younger bro and cousin around..... Stoopid Des rolled his world map and thrust it to me.

"Nah, your pole." Everyone started laughing.
"WHAT?!?"
"Ok if not, then I'll be the pole," Tai stood up and extended his arms upwards.
"........ Don't want lah, no pole dance lah.. Got kids around!!!" I whispered fiercely.
"No, they won't be able to see. Too indulged in their MapleStory," Des reassured, while trying to hide his amusement.

5 mins of cajoling and I did it. All thanks to XP who's leaving and wanted to 'see a good show before I leave' says that woman. Not very good I'd say.... But how does one dance sexily, when she's holding onto a filmsy roll of paper, with no music, and plenty of underaged kids around??? Even the Alize in my bloodstream couldn't make me get into the act.

The kind of friends I have.............. Really no comments.... *shakes head*

In the end left four of us. Sneaked into Des's room to catch The Last Samurai on DVD. They're still hanging outside, sitting, when I'm all comfy on the bed inside. LOL. Drix and Karen left before 10. He needs to work early today and Kar's tipsy. Samurai's boring, so switched to Tokyo Raiders.... Bad choice. Chose War of the Worlds instead. We finished the whole show, which's as cool as I remembered it to be.

Not bad lah, earned 6bucks. Coz by the time Auntie gave angpows I was the only one who's left. HENG I didn't leave early, lol. But had to buy Des a new bedside lamp :( Accidentally broke it when adjusting my pillow.. Indiana Jones & The Last Crusade was the last show we caught for the night. Both fell asleep 3/4s thru the show and woke up in time to catch the ganjiong ending. Good timing, I must say. :)

Left his house about 415, and went for makan at AMK central. Good mee they serve!! Can visit there next time for super late night meals.. Was so full, I couldn't sleep until 630.

There goes my weekend, full of activities. Oh, Friday I was at Danlin's home for some nice home-cooked dinner with her folks. As usual, yakked endless with her. Glad we're still the bestest of friends after all those changes in our lives. My dear, if you're reading this, please remember that cowie and wormie are the bestest pals ever!!! Don't you forget that k, gal =) Looking forward to our Taiwan trip, hee.

OOwwww... my achey muscles and braindead mind. Must have been the pillow fights and wrestling last night. DESMOND CHANG, I WILL HAVE MY REVENGE!! @$*@%&!(@*!)@#(*...

BKK shots

As promised, here are pictures from BKK. In chronological order.

First day in the plane: The beast sleeps... while pretty babes and the BKK sunset come out to play..


While scouting for dinner upon touchdown: Witty sign that lit up (pun so intended) my night...


Second day (Fri): Pray pray first before the shopping rampage!!!!

Clubbing at Route66 at night till 3plus. Pity didn't bring cammie along.

Day 3 (Sat): Wakey super late. Boys went down for brekkie WITHOUT waking me. Afternoon went jalan. Tonight's showdown of BKK's 2 most famous high schools (forgot the names)... Their avid soccer supporters trashed it out first at MBK's cheering competition. Just look at the crowd!!!

From here... to here.. to heerrreee... .. aallll the wayyy to here..
There were students in drag, plenty of fanfare and loudspeakers blaring their horns off. After which it's off to Chatuchak for madcap squeeze n shopping!

Split into two teams at Chatuchak. My record: 7 tops, 2 bottoms, 1 flipflops. Des': 4 shirts, 2 polos, 2 shoes. By the time we're done....

Dinner, followed by Route66 again. I'm so love with that place, helps to know regulars there. DIG the hiphop arena!!! Crashed at 4 again...

Day 4 (Sun): Woke up super late again. But managed to catch brekkie with Ka. Boys were goneded. Last night during dinner Sanya (Drix's thailand fren) told us to visit Wat Phra Khao. i roughly remember those names while planning for my supposedly-family trip to BKK last year. BUT lo and behold, we had to pay for admission.
Cheapo and tired and 'dry' maketh no-good tourists. Pictures taken from outside da forbidden area......

Came back to city area, and went Siam Discovery to check out the movies. No good ones.. Decided to chill and posse more for the cammie..

Spent the night stoned in the hotel after a seafood feast at Chinatown. Finished the whiskey, Drix and Karen surrendered to zzz monster. Watched TV on my bed till fell asleep.

Day 5: Final countdown. Sadded. Went out to Pratunam but the shops were closed. Luckily discovered another area off Siam. Snapped interesting pics along the way.
My buddy's childhood dream of becoming a lady boss is hence fulfilled...
Mooo...
Decided to use up my baht. Record for the day: 2 pairs of heels, 4 pairs flats, 3 pairs earrings, 4 more tops, and BKK munchies for home.

And all good thgs must come to an end... Thanks to the Twin Towers porter for the shot.


While at the airport departure hall, something caught my eye that made BKK even more memorable.

It reads: SIMILAN alcohol. Really cracked me up. Just as I'm leaving "bang cock". Thai people really have a sense of humor.

We'll be back again i promise!!!