Emotionally coasted

I don't know wassup's with me recently. Been a bitch and losing my cool easily. And there are the times of confusion when I'm doing something and I wonder "why am I doing this??" I'm becoming whiny. Not a good thing. I'm becoming begrudging. Not a good thing too. I'm becoming increasingly unhappy as the days wear on.

This is bad.

Sometimes I feel like a hapless baby, trying to hold on and cling on to certain people and things. Especially when I sense the first signs of them slipping away. This is definitely reminiscent of the Sharon back in uni days, when this fear of losing people cost me dearly.

I'd moved on, haven't I? The Sharon now is different and stronger. Well at least that was supposed to be on the script.

But right now with the turbulences going on in my head, reality has snapped its jaws and I'm left to feel the familiar immense pain.

Or maybe reality ain't the culprit. Nor is it my inability to handle the truth. Perhaps this is just a transitory period and I am, in fact, doing very well. Just that the emotions are clouding my vision.

......

I really don't know.

I definitely have to snap outta this. Perhaps be more emotionally detached would help. And pulling away from certain people, whom I've invested far too much than I'd have liked.

I am fragile, after all.