Perfectionism backfired?

Interesting. I just read a thought-provoking article on how perfectionism can stop one from extreme business success.

"Perfectionism causes
1. Procrastination - (you delay working on a project -- because you are afraid of doing a bad, imperfect job)
2. Fear of career advancement (you keep your career in a safe static place -- because you’re afraid of new challenges which you might not perfectly meet)
3. Lack of open communication/stronger relationships (you avoid criticism at all costs – even if it can benefit you in the long term – because you fear being told you’re not perfect)."

Ha! *ding ding wake up call*
NOW I remember those projects I've put (indefinitely) on hold........ kapish.

In love with jazz all over again

Yes my title says it all. I've almost forgotten how well Nat King Cole croons... How Helen Shapiro's version of Beyond the Sea conjures images of Bahamas and coconut trees and "lost lonely boys" kinda swing.. Lol.

Alrights. I'm digging up all my jazz collection. I hereby declare today as my Jazzmatazz Day!!!!
(fades out...... With Matt Monro's lustful voice in the background.............)

Loonz

we're tiny we're toony
we're all a little loony
and this is cartoony
blahblah blahblahblah!

>_< maybe.
disorganized? maybe.
unhappy? ohhhh... definitely.

I know blogging and bitching won't help. Like what baby said, it only serves to justify what I'm feeling. Sucky feelings could just be a passing phase of sorts.
Well............... Yeah, I'm kinda having mood swings. That time of the month's approaching. I just can't wait till my birthday when I finally get outta SG and no work beckons at all.

Work.
Bleahs. You filthy 4-letter word you.

Just so tired of negotiating with people for things. Tired of corporate protocol. Tired of handling people. Tired of talking even. Too much liasing. Talking to too many corporate fako types. Too many "what's-in-it-for-me" to handle time and againandagainandagainandagain.

andagain.

I need a bloody vacation.

Crossroads

I've learnt... It's been a while since I cried outta stress.

Dinner was good. Walking around was good. Then don't know what happened and then the mood just changed. Really made me wonder (and remember) how transient things are. I'm still wondering btw...

And I wonder too why some people can still think about work afterwork hours? Maybe they don't see work as "work" per se. I don't know...

The sms came at a most unopportune time. I was tired.. drained.. exhausted of everything seconds before my mobile beeped. It's this null void emptiness in me that's been there since last night when I suddenly find myself dreading reporting for work.

The article said, "You spend half your life working. You really should find something you enjoy doing"
Angie asked, "Do you enjoy your work?"
The little voice in me said, "Gee... I really dunno."
The other little voice said, "Are you happy doing what you do?"
The little voice replied, "Not really........ Corporate world seemed a tad chilly and unfeeling..?"

This afternoon brought this up to jiemei. He takes practicality over idealism..
Just now brought up to baby... He said that statement in the article only tells you the end result. But you gotta do/work enough before knowing what you most enjoy doing...

I don't know..
Nobody understands....... I just have to deal with it alone.