Crossroads

I've learnt... It's been a while since I cried outta stress.

Dinner was good. Walking around was good. Then don't know what happened and then the mood just changed. Really made me wonder (and remember) how transient things are. I'm still wondering btw...

And I wonder too why some people can still think about work afterwork hours? Maybe they don't see work as "work" per se. I don't know...

The sms came at a most unopportune time. I was tired.. drained.. exhausted of everything seconds before my mobile beeped. It's this null void emptiness in me that's been there since last night when I suddenly find myself dreading reporting for work.

The article said, "You spend half your life working. You really should find something you enjoy doing"
Angie asked, "Do you enjoy your work?"
The little voice in me said, "Gee... I really dunno."
The other little voice said, "Are you happy doing what you do?"
The little voice replied, "Not really........ Corporate world seemed a tad chilly and unfeeling..?"

This afternoon brought this up to jiemei. He takes practicality over idealism..
Just now brought up to baby... He said that statement in the article only tells you the end result. But you gotta do/work enough before knowing what you most enjoy doing...

I don't know..
Nobody understands....... I just have to deal with it alone.