Goodbye

It is with a slightly heavy heart that I pen this entry.

"My Aunt Grace passed away at 7.25 pm tonight. Thank you to all who showed concern for my family and I during this difficult period of our lives. For those who knew her and want to attend the church funeral, it will be on Tuesday, St Andrew's Church. We have yet to decide on the time, pls RSVP for time later."

Message came in at 8.21 pm last night when I was sorting out my coins collection. Didn't call cos they might need time alone to grieve. It's a relief for Aunt Grace I believe. The illness been torturing her way too long... Life has a twisted way of making people feel polar emotions at the same time. I for one, felt happy that the illness has finally left her. Yet it is sad to learn about the passing of someone I know. We've also grown closer with the contact we kept via smses.

"She's been a good woman, the Lord'll keep her safe. Be strong.."

I could've kicked myself for sending such a cliche-sounding reply. But seriously, I couldn't think of what else to say. Perhaps it is to console myself too that Aunt Grace will be happier in her new life. Wanted to fly to Brunei pay my respects but Reub thinks it's not a gd idea. Did explain why and I kinda understand. After all, words can be a man's downfall in that country.. though a typical Singaporean like me don't give two hoots about what people say.

Regrets? Yeah there's one -- I didn't manage to speak to her before she left for the better place (both times she was resting). Big aunt answered the first time, and Reub's mum the second. i think auntie was on the verge of tears when talking to me. Wished I were there to share her tears..

I decided to text her that same evening.
"Auntie grace, i called u today but u were sleeping. wanted to ask if u miss me! haha.. n to tell u i've bought ur xmas present already! excited? heh"

Though I can't be there tomorrow, I'm sure Reub and his family know my intentions and thoughts are with them. Shall go rest now, tomorrow is always a better day.


P.S.: Sigh. Why didn't you wait for me?? Now I've to find a courier that does special requests.. we'll catch up when it's my turn to check in (or out if you take it the other way). I'm pretty sure we'll have PLENTY to talk about.. especially LV :)