Fear

"Yeah you told me about it," you quipped.
I paused, 'Did I?'
A mild look of shock, you realized you'd let slip something
That instant it registered,
"Oh, you've been reading my blog."
And Silence fell.
Was it pain I detected when I spoke to How on your phone?
Or I'd let emotions get to me again?

I didn't ask, I was too afraid to ask.

You feel you're wasting my time, I'd be happier with someone else.
I told you it doesn't matter even if you break up with me,
You said it's ego talk.
I wanted to say, "Because all I can love is you."

I didn't say, I was too afraid to fall again.