Denial

How can I remove that nullness inside?
When everyday I put on a mask,
Doing what I ought to do, doing what I have to do.
I wished Activity could erase everything
Make me numb, make me busy
Don't think, no time to think..
The nullness remains.
A jigsaw puzzle with a missing piece,
The picture is never complete.
I know you may blame me for this entry
But words have become my solace when talk makes me weary
I just wished you'd been more selfish -
String me along, don't care about my feelings so much.....
Keep me, own me.
"Love is just chemical reactions in the brain...."