Blessed :)

Took my time to head home today. Just felt like enjoying my own company.. listening to my fave music... letting my mind wander freely in the realmless plains of imagination while taking in regular steady streams of air. With each step, the weight seems lighter. Perhaps in that vacuum of time void of judgment, fears, worries and insecurities, I became free? I thought of many things. Thoughts drifted from today's lunch, to work, to people.. with occasional blanks in between as I people-watch or when I just felt like spacing out.

It was good fun. Therapeutic even, dare I say. Then a smile broke across my face as I thought about how lucky I am. How blessed. And it is with ironic retrospection that a certain someone has been telling that to me whenever I find something to mopeygoth over. Just that my blessedness never hit me as strong as it did today. When I had chance to cut noise from my life. People who take and don't give in return simply because I was too soft-hearted to cut them away. I find it so amusing, yet comforting in the knowledge that I have my family, my buddies, and my partner. Each lovely and wonderful in their own right. Each who takes cares of my needs, and are always there no matter what. Who truly places my well-being at the top of their priority lists. Simply because they love me! :)

How silly had I been to not bask in their love enough. To show my appreciation enough. To give thanks to these beautiful souls who have shown me nothing but genuine kindness and sweet consideration. Silly, silly, silly..

Hence the more I walked, the lighter my steps became. I felt free in the realisation that all is good. Life is good. I should free myself. And God has been kind to me to have placed some of his most beautiful kind-hearted souls around me. He has also shown me answers that I have been searching for the longest time. And through these people who love me, I managed to find whatever I was looking for. It has been there all the time, you silly girl!

I am indeed, blessed. :)