Lost treasure

You know what they say about old stuff. Things that you've kept in your house cos of memory sake. Things that you can't bear to throw away cos who knows, it might come in handy one day. Things that as you experience life on full throttle, gets pushed further and further to the inconspicuous corners of your mind.

This blog is one of them. As I guiltily admit...

It's been 3 years since I wrote. I had a huge fallout then and saw no point in writing anymore. One day during housekeeping, I decided to revisit and read through all 155 posts of it in one afternoon. Everything seemed so yesterday. Especially the life-changing ones... I am happy I didn't kill this blog then. Because it has served to remind me again how fortunate I have been.. and still am.

3 years has seen my share of drama, especially 2009 and 2010. In the midst of dealing with what's happened, I realise I have neglected myself... again. In the midst of advancing my career, I had neglected self-nourishment - emotional and physical. Perhaps I had allowed myself to be too involved in other people's problems that I overlooked my well-being. I guess my ankle ligament problem also brought back the sucky feeling I had during DVT days... Trust me, it's not a good memory to recall at all. Especially when reminded AGAIN, that you may just pass away anytime.

All in all, I realised I had allowed myself to be weakened by external forces. Things that I can't control. Circumstances I can't undo and situations that I can't change. I have decided to take better care of myself from now on.. not when my life was almost taken from me more than once. I won't make anyone worry about me again. And I won't allow myself to sink so low again.. It's really really NOT worth the worry of those who love me.

If you had read this far, thank you for bearing with me when I got hit by emotional tsunamis. Things will only get better in time.. I promise.