MSN conversation II

espn says:
jie mie.. come on.. talk to me

cowie: never knew what pain meant till today. says:

wats there to tok abt..
i lost everything
i dun mean other aspects in life
but in love
i noe i've my family, my frens, my career
its not the end of the world
yes
but humans haf the prerogative to grieve rite
to mope
n i need dat
else i wont recover fully
i need to seriously grieve n be sad
drop to the bottomless
n den the only way
is up
i noe u all r concerned..
u dun like to c me like tis
but pls..
lemi haf the rite to mourn
feel sorry fer myself..
n den i'd be fine

espn says:
no u dun have the right
u dun feel sorry for urself
u must pull urself together
for me!!!
Still got me, I still want my jie mei !

cowie: never knew what pain meant till today. says:

u still dun geddit
i wan tis pain
i need tis pain to help me be stronger
but b4 i bcm stronger tis is a phase i muz go thru

espn says:

haiz
how long more.. i will feel hurt seeing my jie mei like this

cowie: never knew what pain meant till today. says:

its jus like fallin down haf abrasion on ur knee caps.. pain when u bathe..
but when ok ald u watch how u walk more carefully.. or learn to cycle bttr..
i dunno how lg more
i'd still be normal

espn says:

ya but u fall down liao u get up and walk

cowie: never knew what pain meant till today. says:

not as if i cant eat

espn says:

i want u to do that

cowie: never knew what pain meant till today. says:

ya i am
but im limpin with pain
pain is inevitable
sadness is inevitable
it comes tog

espn says:

but it's only for a while

cowie: never knew what pain meant till today. says:

den i'd noe wat real happiness is n wats dear to my heart

espn says:

canont be like that for long ma

cowie: never knew what pain meant till today. says:

it depends
again i said
i'd be norm
not as if i wun go to wk
nt as if i wun tok
not as if i cant sleep
i'd function as normal
jus dat internally, there's a void
i'd be fine..
no worries la
not the 1stime i kenna tis kinda pain
the pain of loss

espn says:

jie mei must take care wor... i will miss u if i don't see u one