tick tock

I just got home and I'm worried.

Dad went for ECG this morning. Asked him how was it but he replied with a short msg "nvm nthg". Just now spoke to mom and she said no la, he doesn't want you to worry.

"So what did Doc say?"
"He asked us to go NUH for heart scope on wed... Will be able to check better and more accurate also.."
"Ok.. how did he fare on the treadmill?"
"Not very gd..... he was a bit too outta breath. So doc asked us go NUH. Somemore his 3 brothers all had heart probs and bypass etc.. So better be safe than sorry."

Despite telling myself, should be ok one.. don't jump to conclusions.. blah blah blah. I can't help feeling uneasy. plus I know how real it is to have hereditary illnesses in the family. Most importantly, I'm worried about the finances in my family.

Didn't help that I met a banker for dinner just a couple hours before. I'm now acutely aware how very far I am from where I should be.

"100k by 30 is a realistic figure," as he tapped his cig on the ashtray.
I went quiet. 100k is a bit little to do anything at all... I thought to myself.
I dunno why, but it's a gut feeling. I could be wrong... and it could be more than enough. But I know somehow, it's not gonna be enough for me.

1st, I'm the only child. my mum's not working. dad's 52 this year and a cabbie.. I certainly do not want to depend on my future partner cos he too, will have his own parents to take care of. Whoever he maybe, however capable he maybe, that's besides the point. It's always better to depend on myself rather than others.

Time's not on my side. I'm 24 this year, and quite far away from where I should be. Greg's already changed his lifestyle etc.. I'm rethinking about mine. How much I need inside my account by end this year, end next year, and end of 6 years when I hit 30.

tick tock tick tock....