Mommy's day

Today is Mommy's Day.
I just had a brief msn conversation with Reub, who blew 400bucks on some lunch at Empire. As for me? Not a very brilliant dazzling day >>
Met nana for lunch. Renewed my amore fitness package. Shopped for new gymwear and bought 3 tops for mom (more practical than some diamond pendant). Was hoping it'll lift her moods a bit after what happened to dad..

You know, it's not easy to "get over" some things as much as I'd want to. I tried to run more, work more, laugh more, sing more, talk more, drink more. Doesn't help.

Like this incident. No doubt worse things could've happened, I'm still a little affected by the ordeal. When it happened, I felt frightened of the forces we have no control over, and of the destiny that awaits all of us. But now in the aftermath of it all, I felt I had seen more of the people around me. It's as though this incident's an X-ray machine that captures the essence of each and every human around me.

But of course, this could be our self-righteous Sharon spouting nonsense on her ego-inflating blog again. Or miss dramamama at work again.

Shrugs.

I'm thankful to those who were there. Those who were supposed to be superhumanoids carving out their career and rolling in the millions. Those who were up to their neck juggling a ridiculously young family and a flagging career. These are the people who already have not much time nor energy on their hands, and yet they were the ones who stuck close to me during this period of time.

And then there are others who simply reduced contact so drastically, I thought aliens abducting humans turned out to be real after all.

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Okok. I really should stop being so judgmental. Maybe they genuinely care and all I need to do is ask. I don't feel good when I think ill of others..... Benefit of the doubt, woman. Benefit of the doubt.