Blues

I miss waking up in the late afternoons.

Waking up at 0650 was such a bitch. Hit the snooze again and again and again before mum switched off the aircon.

That did it. I couldn't tahan the heat and finally sat up on my mattress grumbling like an old woman.

'Fucking hell..... Why do people have to work?'
*shuffle shuffle*
Pregnant pause before the beige ceramic sink. Resembled a petrified student from Hogwarts.
'Oh gawd, I look like some druggie.' Uttered an indecipherable curse at the dishevelled reflection before the wet turkey ritual.
'I SHOULD BE SLEEPING!!!' That teeny spoilt-brat voice screamed and yelped while I dragged my 'shell' to the office.

As expected, work piled HIGHER than Everest. List of new emails went LONGER than the Great Wall. HELP. Wanted to make coffee but people & calls kept coming to my desk. Finally had time to do my morning nicotine injection.

Thought can have my caffeine fix after that. NO time. Had to rush to Suntec Tower Three for a meeting with the IDA (Infocomm Development Authority of Singapore) people. Actually, I just met one - the Senior Manager for forgot-what-unit. Some David fella. 1.5hour discussion together with Roland, was so freaking braindrained after that. Fruitful though. Throughout the meeting, it dawned upon me (yes, once again) how much emphasis and importance the new Management at A***scan has placed on Marketing.

"I just joined A***scan, and the people there are too engineering per se. They dunno how to sell their expertise or blow their own trumpets enough to attract new businesses... Actually a lot of things they've done can be packaged nicely, together with some re-coding etc," to quote Roland.

David looks at me. "How big's your department, Sharon?"

"Two."

"WHAT? To support staff of 80? I was expecting three to four!" His reaction didn't shock me at all.

Now have to think about how to gift-wrap our vision and direction into a viable value-adding product. How to doll up and make our solutions attractive. AND how to convince those folks that A***scan 'can benefit the industry and Singapore', with personal interests drafted in a more tactful style, in order to get some funding and support from IDA.

Couldn't eat after the meeting. Guess the reminder of how weighty my responsibilities are in the velocity and area of A***scan's expansion stunned me for a good while. Especially after the long period of merrymaking, this 360 change of pace and environment got me bad. Roland went TPY to get his car, and I went back office alone.

Lunch was milo and cereal bar. Too lazy to buy, and no appetite either. All I could think of was clearing as much nitty tasks as I could so I can focus on the battle ahead.

Dropped by Boon Keng to pick up a crystal gift for our big customer. Ate like a mouse for dinner. Even though mum cooked my fave sweet-and-sour prawns and lotus root soup. Kept thinking of work and today's meeting.

Tried to unwind by reading papers, but news about the 26 Dec Tsunami had me tearing. The fragility of Life NEVER fails to get me, somehow. If someone dear was suddenly taken away from you before, you'll understand why.

Oh, almost forgot. Had three more presents for today. A cow plush from Roh, papaya shower gel from Body Shop (Lynn), and a box of Lindt's chocs from dunno-who. Found the box on my desk when I reached office this morning.

"Wah, somebody got secret admirer neh," Coco teased. Dunno whether to laugh or cry..

Gonna go surf around see what inspirations I can get. Never felt so short of breath before... Sighs.