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To say I'm not affected at all would be a big fat lie.

Had the most intense lunch with some colleagues just now. Thrashed out certain issues and it confirmed my suspicions. Some person said things and made it sound in a different manner altogether. As a result, people start distrusting me.

I sensed the change in attitudes a month ago. Had asked kitty about it but she thought maybe too burn out hence the coldness. I wasn't convinced.

Did clear the air though. I was actually waiting for them to confront/clarify with me. Didn't bother to explain myself nor ask why the change in attitudes cos if they doubt me and choose to believe some rumors... Then they're not worth my time after all.

'It's work, I'm not there to socialise anyways,'
That was what I told myself to make myself feel better during that period of time when I was given the cold treatment. Shut myself up too.

Sighs...

I don't blame anyone for his/her reaction. It's all part and parcel of trigger-reaction effect. I'm just worried I'll lose some friends unnecessarily because of one woman's wagging tongue. People like Stefan whom I regard as bro.

But then again, if they choose to doubt me and believe some stupid rumors...... in the first place, they most probably ain't worth my keeping. So I should just fuck it?

Haiya dunno lah. "My weakness is, that I care too much." to quote one of my fave songs.